Step Out

The past year or so has been a rollercoaster ride. For a while I have been praying that God would either get me into politics or take the desire away from me. I am a republican working for a democrat so it was impossible for me to be involved with the party of my choice.

I decided that politics was out of the question and I have become uninterested in the whole game. So, over this past year I have felt God tugging on my heart. I was sure that the upcoming change that I knew was coming wasn't going to be getting involved in the political field. Melissa and I then began to look at going overseas as missionaries. I have never struggled and wrestled with anything in my life. After months of discussing and praying we decided to begin the process of going to either Austria or Germany.

We started the process (filled out applications and contacted the necessary people) and even began to look at airline tickets for our first visit. Although this is still an option and something that I am still interested in God began closing those doors.

While He was closing those doors He was opening other doors. Judge McKenney wanted me to be his staff attorney and to head up a big project that he is starting. The job has a 12 month "certainty". After 12 months, depending on which party wins the election I may be out of a job. So accepting the job is a step of faith. I decided against it. I still wanted to pursue going overseas.

I was then asked again if I wanted the job. Melissa and I talked one night and she said "you have closed that door so many times and it keeps opening, maybe you just need to walk through it." So I did. Is it a step of faith? Yep. Is it more uncertain that it would have been had I stayed at the prosecutor's office? Maybe from a temporal perspective but we must remember that God is in control of all things. We all (believers) want to follow Christ. We all want to do what He would have us do. But actually following is not an easy thing. If it was, we would all be doing it.

Does all of this mean that things will work out exactly as I want them to? Nope. Does this mean that the right party will win the next election and I will keep my job? Nope. Does this mean anything other than the Creator of the Universe has asked me to step out of my comfort zone and follow Him? Nope, but that sure is comforting.