Trust

When you work for an elected official you always know that the existence of your job could end with the next election. I took this job in January knowing that it was very much a possibility that my job would be over after the election. I had been at the Summit County Prosecutor's Office for 4 1/2 years and, while I enjoyed the job, I felt God's tug on my heart to work for Judge McKenney in Probate. So, I left a job that was secure for one that was not secure. It was a step of faith and one that I do not regret making. So, as I await the word on whether my time in probate is finished I am reminded of God's goodness. I have often thought that it would be nice to know God's plan. If I knew why God called me to probate and what He had in sotre for me after then maybe it would be a bit easier. I realize though, that this is not entirely true. Look at the prophets in the Old Testament. God revealed to them what He was going to do and why He was going to do it. Did this help the prophets? Not really. Look at their lives and their reactions to God's word - Jeremiah wept, Daniel was saddened by the destruction of Jerusalem, the minor prophets were not entirely pleased with the sacking of Israel and Judah. No doubt, the prophets trusted. No doubt that the prophets often knew exactly what God was going to do and why He was going to do it, but they were still saddened by it. So, while I wait I know that God is sovereign. I have prayed that God would give me A job - I have also prayed that His will be done. I trust Him, but that doesn't mean that I have to be thrilled with the process. I do consider it pure joy because I know that the testing of my faith develops perseverence. But that doesn't mean that I have to be happy. The prophets were joyful in God's sovereignty but not happy with the process. Jesus was joyful with the cross but asked that the cup be taken from Him. Yet, we willingly and trustingly submit to God's will. And no matter what happens in life; no matter what happens with my job; no matter what happens in the world it all pales in comparison to eternity and I rest in that. He is the Author and Finisher of my faith and I trust Him for that.